Congrats!

Nick Basta graduates today! WOO!

I'm excited for the church service today. All the graduates are doing special music.

Let the season for grad parties begin, also meaning free food, fun and hanging out with some pretty cool people. :)

Also, edited to add, I made it into 7 of the senior's slideshows at church. I didn't realize that I had so many friends that were seniors. This is the youngest group of friends that I have.

You and Me can write a Bad Romance ;)

I've finally caught myself up on some television shows that I have been missing out in. I don't normally watch T.V very much, but there are a few shows that I do like, like The Office, Biggest Loser, Greek and Doctor Who. But, I also have taken a fancy to Glee. Yup, i'm a Gleek. It's not so much of the drama/high schoolish entertainment that i'm really in it for, I really like the songs. Last weeks episode was a Lady Gaga feature and I was surprised and excited to find out that Idina Menzel was going to be in it! I love her! She played Elphaba in the original Broadway cast of Wicked. Also, they did "Bad Romance" and that song has been in my head for days. It was a pretty good episode man.

Oh, also, it totally looks like a lot of fun to dress up super crazy like how they did in Bad Romance, just sayin. Except for those shoes. Those shoes look like they kill, they fascinate me, but still. They look awful and painful.



Look at the first and third one. What the heck. How does that even work?! I can kind of understand the middle one--though that just looks painful too. Ouch!

YOU GET VASELINE!

Somebody likes Vaseline a little too much.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKxBoPgujNk&feature=player_embedded#

I think Tyra Banks is a complete idiot. I cannot stand her shows. She has a very whiny voice, and all around seems very superficial. This clip made me laugh though, as she's jumping up and down, doing God knows what on the floor (seriously, what IS she doing?!)Screaming at the top of her lungs "YOU GET VASELINE AND YOU GET VASELINE AND YOU GET VASELINE!"

Vaseline isn't all that great, Tyra. I love how the tiny bottle has rhinestones on it. And how it is valued at $100. Who spends $100 on Vaseline, Tyra, who?! I could probably buy some at walmart for like $2 and then spend the other $98 on something better than Vaseline. If i really wanted to have a rhinestoned bottle of vaseline. I could spend the $2 at walmart for vaseline. $2 for a bag of rhinestones and I have a hot glue gun...I could make that happen. But that is just ridiculous! It's crazy how she/some people have that much money to blow. Why not pay for my college tuition hmm? I don't see Tyra gyrating on the floor about that. Or saving starving children in africa. Tyra, you suck!

I'm only gunna break your heart.

Much earlier today I was on my way home from St. Cloud. I had talked to my advisor, submitted necessary papers to the appeal office and stocked up on powdered sugar donuts and orange crush. (I didn't have breakfast this morning man!) It was time to go home. The sun was shining. The birds were chirping. The squirrels were roaming about campus. Two ducks crossed my path by Centennial Hall. It's summer man. There's nothing better than taking a long drive down a almost-country road. Though, I would prefer that the road was not highway 95. Because highway 95 sucks. There's usually always some annoying drivers and ridiculous trucks. And one thing about 95, it's almost impossible to pass those bastards. See, I have road rage, even when not on the road. Going 50 in a 55 annoys the hell out of me. If you're not going to speed then at least do the bloody speed limit people! Seriously, if I was driving, i'd be doing at least 65. But anyway, it felt amazing to sip orange pop and listen to secular pop music on the radio. Usually I deem pop music as trash. Except for when it isn't. And a lot of trashy music came on, and Emily and I laughed at the dumb lyrics and the fact that these singers are making millions of dollars for singing vowels. Seriously, Rihanna has two songs where that's basically all she's doing. In "Umbrella" the whole long spiel where she sings the letter a. Over and over again. Very catchy, but i'm betting most everyone can do that. And then again in one of her newer songs collaborated with T.I and based on the popular "Numa Numa" song (again it's just vowels) is, "Live your Life" where again, the chorus is made up of mostly singing the letter A. Anyone sounds good singing that. My mom sounds good singing that. And that's saying a lot here people!
Emily, Molly and I have "a song" which we crank up on the radio whenever it's playing, jam out and sing at the top of our lungs. That song came on the radio today, and what song is that you might ask? Um...it's "Break Your Heart" by Taio Cruz and Ludacris. *Blush* Yes, it is a godawful song. And yes, I really don't know the words other than the chorus. And yes, it has an awful message. But something about singing "i'm only gunna break break break break your heart!" in a really upbeat way, really loudly is kind of fun. Okay, a lot of fun. It's kinda funny that I even like that song, well, I mainly like the chorus, but it talks about guys breaking girls hearts. Meh. Not exactly cheerful, but the tune is pretty catchy. Listen for yourself: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8gjZldgpXY

So yes, singing those songs really loudly, sipping orange pop, and driving on a long road on a hot summer day = amazing.

Too bad i'm now home. Gah. Total countdown until i'm gone again is 2 weeks! And hey! I get my car back in a week! Hallelujah. I miss my baby.

It's been Real.

Well, this will be my last post from the teal couch in Emily's apartment. Mostly because the teal couch is not Emily's, it's her roommates Megan's and Megan is moving out and taking it with her. Sad day. And also because I go home tomorrow/today. I'm kinda sad to go actually. I was having a good time in St. Cloud. It's nice when you don't have anything to worry about (except money. Money is the root of all evils.) I've hung out with some friends, gone to church, swimming, played games, watched movies and just did nothing for most of it. Well, as well as gone to a meeting and written up 3 appeal papers. I have a meeting with an advisor tomorrow at 10 am. And then Emily and I are hitting the road once again and going home. It's been real St. Cloud, it's been real. Hopefully the news I receive tomorrow and next week is good so I can be here again.

It's Hot.

I am writing to you dear blog from a teal couch in the living room of my friend Emily Johnson's apartment. I currently have 3 fans blowing on me and am scandalously clad in skimpy clothing. It's bloody hot here. What the crap. Both Emily and I don't even know what to do because we're so hot. So I decided to post a blog about how hot I am, which if you haven't guessed already, is really really hot.

I guess we are going swimming now. Heck yes. This blog is pointless. :P Sorry.

Almost half-way

Day 15 of being at home. Only 19 more days to go until I leave for Camp. The last 15 days have been stressful, not gunna lie. I've endured a lot of crap, put up with some ridiculous stuff and things just keep getting worse despite the whole "Giving it to God" kind of thing. Maybe i'm doing it all wrong. Or maybe this is just one of these times where God is challenging me. I seem to feel as though it might be the latter. I can totally picture God asking me, "if I take it all away, will you still follow me?" Because it's God. And He does that kind of thing. So...if that IS the question, what would my answer be? After doing some thinking and really looking at what I would do, I decided that yeah, I will still follow Him. He can take away everything, but He will still be there. Proving that He is really all I need in the end. And it's going to be okay. So God, if that was the realization you wanted me to get from all this, then I got it. Now could you please work on my current school issues?

Anyway, going back to home and stressfulness and just life in general. Being home made me realize many many things. I think the past school year I had gained a lot of independence, grown spiritually, my self-esteem was much better and I was a much happier person. I learned that I cannot live at home anymore. I learned that if you put me back into a situation where I feel oppressed and not independent, but feeling stuck instead, that everything that i've learned and felt in the past year at school will leave you more quicker than it took to get it. I feel like the past paragraph was not worded well, but I hope you get the point. I'm back to the beginning, where I was just a year ago. I'm not happy, my self-esteem sucks, I feel trapped and my spiritual life is suffering. I spend countless hours on facebook and online chatting to friends and playing games to get away from it all and to help ease the pain. It's summer, and that's pathetic. I had such high hopes for summer, and...it's not happening. Many friends have told me to just leave. I'm 22 years old, I don't need to listen to anybody. Easier said than done. Like I said, I feel trapped. I don't see a way out, even if you do. There's a lot of risk involved, and let's face it. Me and risk, we don't get along.

School has me currently frustrated/angry/upset/miserable. I am trying to figure everything out, and if I even will be going to school in the fall. Tomorrow, I'm going with my friend Emily back to St. Cloud to work some things out and hopefully just make everything okay again. I'm just really sick of everything that's going on, and asking people to pray for me, and I had a friend tell me that she's sick of having to pray for me. She didn't really mean it in a harsh way, she just meant that she wishes she could personally do something for me. But yeah, i'm sick of it. Have I mentioned there are 19 days before camp? Yeah. I cannot wait. I know that I NEED camp, even more than camp needs me. It's really amazing, I think I learn more there than anywhere else. I grow more there, and can be myself, and be happy. I have some friends who like to poke fun of Camp and how I seem to worship it. But if they only understood what it does and means to me, then maybe they could understand why I'm so excited and why I talk about it a lot. That being said, i'm looking forward to the rest of this summer and getting back on track with God and all that I had last year at school. 19 more days of hell. The rest of the summer will be bliss.

Instructions on how to be Gothic.

Inspired by a very recent conversation with Betsy (when I say very recent, I mean, i'm still having this conversation as I type) here is instructions on how to be Gothic, if you ever wondered how:

Potato little dove says:
Dude.
There's no way to "be" gothic unless you dress that way.
And listen to the Cure and pretend to be sardonic.
Just wear your choir dress.
That's pretty goth
Mindy says:
ROFL
no it's not
Potato little dove says:
Yeah it is.
I just said "Yaaahhhh" out loud in response to you
on accident
Mindy says:
ROFL
Potato little dove says:
THAT'S HOW STRONGLY I FEEL ABOUT THIS.
Mindy says:
i do that a lot
haha
how is it gothic?
Potato little dove says:
Dude
Mindy says:
just because its all black?
Potato little dove says:
NO.
Because it's like
VELVET
That's the most gothic fabric there is
and it's also nasty lacey shit
= gothic
You should get a pair of really high platform shoes
that are like
super nasty and chunky

Well, there you have it folks. In a nutshell, wear really high, chunky, nasty platform shoes, black velvet and nasty lacey shit, listen to Cure and pretend to be Sardonic and you might be Gothic.

If you're wondering how this conversation came to be, it's because my newest profile picture looks Gothic to some people. It really isn't.